Sunday, December 17, 2006 @2:33:00 AM
its 2:33am. n i can't sleep. dunno y. haiz.
now sitting in front of comp, nursing a cup of milo. i tot milo is kinda lyk coffee-for-those-not-old-enuf-to-drink-one. not that i'm not old enuf. haha. duhh! its just that i tot milo's lyk to freshen u up. lyk coffee. but fiza said drinking milo makes u feel sleepy. really? then y the heck ppl drink 'em in the morning? to fall asleep? hmmmmm. *wonders*
yaa chatting with wan on msn rite now. kinda grateful at least i hv someone to talk to. along's watching football.
well, the truth is i haven't been the good daughter. i mean ya i did some of the house chores but apparently all that doesn't count. mama wants and expects more. yeah had an earful just now. n as usual ayah's on my side but he told me nicely to be more "rajin" in this house. thanks ayah for understanding. hell i was bingit when mama bising2 but what can i do, just endure lor. so today's gonna see me be the maid-of-the-day. sometyms i feel lyk its not fair. mama didn't see me kluakan n masokkan kain baju tu bape bnyk kali becoz of the rapidly changing n full-of-surprise weather. n i had to clean up the mess that my dear brothers left behind when they rush outta the house. n thats just the few things that i did when nobody's home. when i rest, thats the tym mama came home then accuse me of not doing any housewerk. juz laze on the couch watch tv. huh??
why do mothers have to nag so much? y cant they ask nicely n patiently lyk fathers do? am i gonna be lyk that one day?? is it lyk a natural thing for mothers??? eeekkk... *tries to shake that freaky tot outta head*
well, but watever it is, i know she luvs me A LOT. n thats wat matters. its okay i guess to be nagged lyk all the tym. it IS my fault. i think. i'll try my best lahh to be a gd daughter. she hv only me to rely on to lessen the house chores burden anyway. well when i hv a daughter i wud want her to be a rajin person. so i'll try to be one now. coz wat goes around comes around rite? haha. pikir jauh seyy.
aaarrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhh
y izit i'm still not sleepy?? damn! n i've finished my milo. even wan had went offline. him as usual missing someone. n i took up the counselor role. as usual. haha. tk abiz2 si wan tu. relax man!!
i'm a really ambitious person. its not that i wanna achieve a lot of things. no. i hv only one thing in mind actually. no two. for the tym being dat is. one of 'em is achievable insya-Allah. i wanna do well in my preu2. n i'm sure thats wat ALL preu2's want. okay so thats just natural n plain logic. who does not want to succeed in his/her lyf rite?? but the other one... well, a lot of ppl would say its kinda.. ermm.. how'd u put it.. far-fetched? ya dats it. n especially when they see my O result next year. haha. i'm quite confident i would say. n ayah has faith in me. but angah was kinda sceptical abt it. n mama's... ermm.. surprised to hear dat? my best guess wud be that she doesn't expect me to take that route. she wants me to just follow the flow. lyk evrybody else. stereotype expectation. i dunno. ustzh fadilah gave me her full support. in fact she's the one who pressed me to do it in the first place. i did ask some ppl's opinion. n they told me to go for it. if along n angah can do it, y can't i? yes i may not be a total genius lyk both of 'em. but at least i can try. n its the effort that counts. haiz. i'm confused. really.
think i'm gonna stop here. this post's kinda long isn't it? haha. so its 3:51am. woahh took me more than an hour to type all this. heh. guess i'll try to get some sleep. somehow. peace evrybody.