yesterday didnt go sch. bad case of flu. really bad. cant breathe thru my nose. urgh.

so 9feb. ari penentuan. nyahaha. sesungguhnya ku amatlah tk berperasaan. really. i mean most of them were lyk "ehh seram nyeeee!!" esp kimah (smgt countdown summore!). but me, maan n yun? na-da. even tcr nana n tcr yasmin were freaked out. its lyk we're emotionless or sumting. i was only worrying abt my majalah whether can finish on tym or not. haha. really. maybe coz already tawakkal-ed evrything lah. i mean logically even if u worry lyk crazy, it still wun change ur result rite? da termaktub. so juz accept it with an open heart. ikot rezeki n nasib masing2 lah. n ard 2+ i actually started to worry! okay fine not abt my reults. but worrying why i dun feel as nervous n anxious as the others. kinda lyk abnormal. weird. haha. stupid. ya i noe.

so 1 of the first person to log in and check her result was kimah. she did quite gd except for her science. n i was lyk, ookay if she got dat grade, ape lg aku sehh?? so at last! i'm feeling more human. i was actually worrying abt my result! then suddenly heard a commotion. huda's result. woahh only A's n B's!! i was lyk green with envy seh! congrats huda!! then maan actually screamed! coz she got B3 for math n science! i was lyk, WOW!! no way i'm gonna get DAT kinda result. so became more greener with jealousy.

my turn. ok ya i actually screamed too. coz i passed my math n science!! nyahaha!! lame. ya i noe. i mean at least maan screamed coz she got B. but i screamed coz i got C?? pathetic seyy. ahakz! burst into tears summore! but tell u the truth? i wasnt confident lahh that i can pass my math n science. math?? i got a freaking F9 ok for my prelim. n my paper 1 i didnt manage to finish my paper. AT LEAST 20marks down the drain juz lyk dat! serious! as for science, also i didnt manage to finish the paper. cudnt really rmbr y. tk cukop tym gaknye. so yahh my result? 3A 1B 2C. alhamdulillah. i achieved my goals which is to pass all the subjects, get distinction for both malay n irk n also to get an agg of below 20 for all 6subjs. hamdan lillah. =)

notice to all. pls dun compare the aljuniedianz's result with those who study Olevel full-tym. coz it's juz sooo not fair. we only study lyk half of wat they study. the num of academic periods dat is. they also can focus only on the O. but for us, we cudnt give our undivided attention coz we still have our arabic subjs to worry abt. ard 10 or more? yup. n the best part? sch xm clashed with O. its lyk for all the days we dun hv O, we hv to sit for sch xm. so u really cant blame us for not passing with flying colors. yg pelajaran pat sch pon penting pe. bknnye ape, but i'm sick of hearing ppl say that madrasah student cant do well in O. they look down on us. especially alj. my say to dat kinda ppl : shuddup. try to be in our shoes. then u can open ur blardy mouth.

now for the next step. shud i juz follow the flow -u noe lyk finish alj den go azhar- or shud i gamble n start study for my A? i'm reconsidering my latter's choice coz my math C6? its lyk, u're kidding me?? math C6 berangan nk amek A??. yahh dat kinda thing. and also considering my assignments b'lambak sgt. dunno if i can cope. argh! help ppl!

k la dats it. tmr going sch. compulsory for evrybody. y? to deco class. yeah pathetic. i noe. especially kena dtg as per normal. 7:30. lyk heck?? they shud at least start a bit later. haiyyo. so after dat gonna do tauhid project n a bit of usul. sorf lagi kena anta next week. n next week's also last week for hifz. after dat imtihan hifz 6 pages. lyk #&%!@??? aru afal ngn ust 1page!! omg! i really gotta buck up sehh!! k k gotta go. nak finish up my part for the tauhid project. k la ppl. niwei thanks a lot k sal doakan n wishing kejayaan for me. jazaakallahu khaira jazaa'! daa~

btw to all my frens out there, yg b'jaya CONGRATS!! bg yg kurang b'jaya, NEVA GV UP!! retake the paper if u think its necessary. venture elsewhere klw mampu lyk m'sia ke ape. its not the end of the world. bumi Allah ni luas. ilmu ade sana sini. dun fret. sembahyang istikharah klw perlu utk mintk petunjuk. never forget dat we're always there 4 u. supporting u all the way insya-Allah. n bagi yg bakal mengambil O, blaja btol2 k. study smart. krg beruntung sgt2 sal da ade bnyk pertukaran utk bg krg lg sng blaja for O. tk mcm kte last yr. so u guys shud get better result then us. k? =)

bye.

Siti Hajar
Twenty on twenty-three nov.
Schoolin'.
Yes i'm a mina tudung n i'm proud of it!
Basically a happy-go-lucky n a simple person.